Vacation at Sarawak...! ^_^

          
On 27th of may my family and I went to our hometown at Sarawak for spending our school holiday threre...Hard 4 me to express my feeling for this vacation...I thought disz must such a boring vacation bcoz for the 1st time in my life I felt did't want to go there... I think disz bcoz of my cousin...huh...! tired to think about disz...Really tired....!! But dis time I spend  my holiday at srwk,too many thing that I had learned...I went to long house on 30th of may...oh god! thanx bcoz my cousin not back there this year...bcoz I really don't know how to face her... should I 4give her about the past?? could I accept her and juz act like nothing happen?? could i do dat???  Ya allah berat btol dgaan mu...And could she accept me bcoz I know she also angry at me but why?? she start dis 1st...damn it...! spnjg cuti ney ati aku juz bperang ngn kisah lampau....I really miss our relationship like before...tp aku tau bnda ney xmgkin akn berubah...mgkin ada hkmah d'seblik semua ney... Ya Allah tbahkan hati hmbamu ini....

             Smbutan gwai taun ney xla brapa meriah sgt...aku pown xtau npew...mybe sbb rmai cousin aku yg xblik...tp mse kt umah pnjg ney bnyak yg aku blajar n knal org...aku mula kwn ngn bdk2 yg b4 ney anggap aku sombong...sorry... i not dat type...!juz xpndai nk brgaul ngn kowng...dis time i back to long house,i learn how to love him, i learn how to miss n rmber him...thanx Allah coz give me this chance..sbb slama ktaowng knal xpnh nk brjauhan selama 2...2 la...setiap yg brlaku da hkmahnyer...kali ney balik mmg shopping gler2... kasut,bju,suar,beg,mcm2 r....huh....hrga? xpyh kira la...big boss byr..huhu...staun skali jew nk blnja mcm 2...

               Last night at srwkb4 i go back to kedah, I met my cousin...huh...how to face her...?shit..! at last I start to interact with her......she asked me for a forgiveness...i said " it ok...let forget the past"...we actlike nothing happen but i know she just pretnding in front of me...i know she not accept me n forgive me truly from her heart...but i'm ok bcoz i had prdict diz will be happen....she told me dat she never cntc my ex again...but...!!at last i saw her msg with him...huh....! =( why you should lied to me?? perlu ke ko mnipu aku?? pew tjuan ko tipu aku lg...??juz nk sdpkn aty aku kew??! i really dissapointed with her...should she did like dis to me...? Allah maha berkuasa...idop umpama adanya hukum karma....setiap yg kta lakukan ada balsannya sma ada baik atau x...So i juz let them go...mls dh nk ambk port g...juz make me sick...! shit...!now juz forgt them and pretend nothing happen...( my life juz have too many pretanding than real)



          P/S: For my beloved cousin...if you read dis i just you wanna to know i really miss our relationship...even you did to me i still forgive u and i really wanna to let this go...i hope you will felt like me...i just miss our moment together especially last year..eventhough it was the worst year 4 me...aku xnk da jurang n kejanggaln dlm hbgn kita lg... so forgive me... -_- i miss you lilian.....